2013 Goals

One area of progress I would like to see in 2013 for my health is in improving my fitness level. Or actually gaining a fitness level.. that would be a good place to start.

I joined a program at my local Y to help via the buddy system, but let's be honest. I am not good at making new friends. I want to be, but mostly I am just too quiet and not much of a sharer. Or something. The sad thing is that I don't really know why... maybe that should be another goal for 2013. Increase the number of friends I have.

Back to improving my fitness. I have a large coat hanger - also known as a treadmill that I almost never use. Perhaps I could start using that in the mornings when I wake up... it would increase my energy, for sure. And help my pants fit a little better.

Four Years Later - New Year's Eve 2012~2013

It's NYE. In looking over this old blog, I found the post below. It's somewhat depressing - I am still trying to figure out how do all of those things. Still trying to be organized. Still trying to get into shape and loose weight, eat healthy, be financially sound... the list goes on. Are these goals that no actually attains because there is always room for improvement? Or am I just doomed to be on this endless merry-go-round of believing that there is something better out there.

This new blog won't even be published publicly, I think. I need a space just to write and do some thinking, but without the worries of readers or traffic or trying to be "noticed". I just don't have the time to devote to it that makes me happy. And if I'm constantly worrying about how often I post and whether someone is reading or if I have to plan out posts that may be commercial (or attempt to), then it's really not a place for me to get back to writing and exploring writing. That is one of my goals for 2013. Amongst others.

I hope that every morning, I will set aside time to just write about something. Or write about the things I want to think about, but don't really want to share... like Lily's desire for a Dad and the fact this is something that I probably won't ever be able to give her, no matter how much I want that or how sex starved I get.

Or how my job drives me nuts and the days that I am a really bad lazy mom. Why I really don't drink alcohol any more and other stuff I need to say on a regular basis.

The best laid plans of mice and men, gang aft agley

You know... I started this blog with tons of ideas and energy. I was going to do decorating, and crafting and sewing and gardening and cooking and blah, blah, blah... Obviously, that did not happen. I haven't touched a craft project in over two months. My cooking can barely be called that, the garden still isn't prepped, nothing has been planted and it's May next week. Don't even think about the state of my house. The best I can report on that end is that I bought a new vaccuum cleaner. In my defense, I did get a new foster child and finished part of my National Boards entry (due in April). I also filed my taxes. whoo-hoo.

I'm a great planner, but a poor executor. And I don't want to be that. As I type that, however, I wonder if I can even change. I'm nearly officially middle aged and as we've all be taught, old dogs cannot learn new tricks. Or can they? Seriously, I dunno any more.

I need to get on an active track. I did actually do a lot more at one time. I was almost organized. Maybe if I takle it one step at a time, I can get back on track. So this week, my goal is keep up with the house. Dishes, vaccuuming, the millions of tons of laundry. Possibly decluttering to help keep it in order, but really, I need to focus on finding a routine and stick to it!